Loss of control.
Loss of dignity.
Being a patient can be excruciating.
Today it is my turn.
Last month I was diagnosed with breast cancer.
Today I will undergo a bilateral mastectomy and hopefully begin the reconstruction and healing process.
I am not even close to a point of accepting this in a way that I see it as a lesson or gift, but I am here to learn.
What I am also ready to experience as a patient:
If you are the type, I would welcome your best thoughts and prayers.
P.S. The picture above is one I deliberately took before I learned of my cancer diagnosis. I knew the biopsy results would arrive that day, and I wanted to capture a moment that would embody Before, because I knew if the results came back as malignant, everything would be divided into Before and After. This was Before. Now is After.