David Byrne performed “Once in a Lifetime” on Saturday Night Live last weekend.

At first I thought the performance was comically weird, and then I learned that the monochromatic Byrne clones onstage were a part of his Broadway show American Utopia.

Here’s the thing: “Once in a Lifetime” is my jam.

These lyrics have long resonated with me:

And you may find yourself in a beautiful house
With a beautiful wife
And you may ask yourself, well
How did I get here?

How did I get here?

I marvel at this again and again.

Prior to my diagnosis, the wonderment was directed at the fact that, nearly 22 years ago when we married, Spouse and I never dreamt our lives would objectively be as successful as they are.

Lately cancer feels like it took it all away.

Except.

Seeing David Byrne perform that favorite song in a new way sparked something within me.

I could change my tune.

Same song, new performance.

I don’t know what A.C. (After Cancer) Life is going to be like yet, but I really hope to find myself there.

Under the rocks and stones, there is water underground.