Could the Timing Be Worse?

^^^Rhetorical question.

I write posts when I’ve got something to say and a (little) time to do it.

Some I schedule to post in advance, usually within a few days.

Looking through some of the most recently posted – but not necessarily written – it’s striking how much everything changed so quickly in our world due to the unprecedented global pandemic we are experiencing.

There’s never a good time to do chemotherapy, but starting today feels particularly scary.

After some deliberation, this is what I chose to wear.

The irony of the message on the t-shirt isn’t lost on me, and I am not wearing this to be snarky.

There is so little I can control now.

I can’t control cancer.

I can’t control Coronavirus.

I can’t control my immune system.

I can’t control the calendar, fast forwarding several months to a time that is better, more convenient or less risky.

I can control my attitude.

So I will choose to believe that this day is the start of the next phase, one that will hopefully get me closer to being whole again.

2 thoughts on “Could the Timing Be Worse?

  1. Love you, Jani.
    Reading your posts everyday inspires me to be more mindful and present. My positive thoughts and prayers are with you every day. You got this.

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