This article in The Atlantic is getting a lot of (well-deserved) attention.
The link is above and it’s well worth your time to read it.
As someone who is currently undergoing cancer treatment – a.k.a. a high-risk, immunocompromised individual – I feel strongly about taking pro-active measures to keep society – and myself – safe.
Our long-anticipated spring break cruise?
While it was not a hard decision for our family to make, I am still part of a social media group of fellow cruisers who are still planning to embark as scheduled.
It’s disappointing to see so many comments along the lines of “Whoo-hoo! Less people at the buffet!” or “Free upgrades for everyone!”
The most dangerous fallacy, I believe, is this: “But I’m healthy.”
Up until recently, so was I.
I practice a very niche area of medicine and for the most part, I don’t have a high patient volume nor are most of my patients extremely ill.
But think about other medical specialties like geriatricians, ER physicians, oncologists, critical care physicians, etc. There are many specialties where patient acuity and volume are both high. Some fellow OBGYNs I know routinely see up to 40 patients a day.
So, even if you are a healthy individual, an infected-but-asymptomatic (or incubating) health care provider could easily be a point of contact for dozens of really sick people every day.
Patients who are seeking care for one illness may be put at risk for acquiring another.
This could get bad very quickly, and likely will.
I agree with many of my colleagues that health care providers, and especially physicians, should lead the way as role models as we wade through the Coronavirus pandemic.
Hopefully some of the residual cruisers will also get the memo, although as we’ve seen recently, even if they don’t, their vacation may get an unwanted 14 day extension in quarantine.
Late last week I got a result I’d been waiting for: my Oncotype report.
Oncotype DX is a test that can be done on certain tumors (breast, colon, prostate) to determine whether an individual patient would benefit from chemotherapy and calculates the risk of recurrence for this unique tumor.
Multiple cancer-related genes are analyzed, data are crunched and the end result is a score from 0-100. This is one test you want to fail, i.e. the lower the score, the better. From the company’s website: “A low score means the cancer has a lower chance of returning and you have a lower chance of benefiting from chemotherapy. A high score means the cancer has a higher chance of returning and you have a higher chance of benefiting from chemotherapy.”
One benefit that the company touts is that for women with a low score, they may be able to avoid chemotherapy. One report said that without an Oncotype score, many women (25%) with clinically high risk tumors may be given chemotherapy when it may not be necessary.
Let me state that another way: prior to the availability of the Oncotype test, oncologists made decisions on chemotherapy based on tumor characteristics, including overall stage as well as several nuanced factors, including hormone receptor status and a given patient’s age and overall health status. After the Oncotype became available, some oncologists began heavily factoring the score when making treatment decisions.
When I met with my oncologist, she drew a chart with the pros and cons of my case. Pros included favorable receptors (my cancer is estrogen and progesterone receptor positive and HER-2 negative, which means it may respond well to hormone blocking pills, which are different from traditional chemotherapy), negative surgical margins (meaning there wasn’t evidence of cancer left behind after surgery), and no detectable spread to nearby lymph nodes. Good, good, good.
On the con side, my tumor is aggressive (grade 3/3), and while they cannot prove spread, there was evidence that the tumor was trying to break out of its localized area (there was lymphovascular invasion). Bad, bad.
And then there are the matters of my age and health. I’m not sure if these are pros or cons, but my age is relatively young for breast cancer (47) and my health is excellent, which – fortunately – means that without this diagnosis, I would be predicted to have a lot of life left to live. Because I want to keep it that way, it may also tip the balance toward aggressively treating the cancer and allowing me to get back to the business of living that life.
At the end of the visit with the oncologist, the pro/con chart was split down the middle.
She decided to get the Oncotype report before making a final recommendation.
I told her that if she was on the fence, my bias would be to get the chemo. I don’t want to be sitting in her office five years from now, wishing I had done the chemo early on. Regret management rears its head again.
The report came back last week.
I am not going to disclose the actual number because I don’t want to get into a debate with anyone or enter into a whose-cancer-is-worse/better situation, but suffice it to say, my score was low.
This was surprisingly good and unexpected news. Using the score alone, I might fall into that “overtreated” chemo group.
Without that score, I would be considered “clinically high risk” and would get chemo.
And while I like to consider myself extremely evidence based on how I practice medicine, in my personal investigation of breast cancer I have uncovered several heartbreaking cases of patients with low Oncotype scores whose cancer did NOT behave as predicted and are now dealing with recurrences or living with metastatic disease.
In medicine, evidence is graded by how high quality it is. An “A” level or Level 1 study would be considered the best possible evidence, ideally obtained via a large randomized, double blinded placebo trial that included diverse patients from multiple sites.
In contrast, doctors’ opinions or customary practice are “C” evidence at best.
My opinion about my own treatment was now dangerously approaching Level Z evidence.
In the end, I got a call from my oncologist’s office about the Oncotype report and her opinion was – like mine – to move forward with chemotherapy despite the low score.
I am 100% on board with this, and in the end, I think I got what I hoped for: reassurance and insurance to fight this beast.
With my return to work this week, many people are asking me this.
My usual response is a chipper “I’m doing ok!”
But am I?
I would describe my return this week – a week earlier than planned, but what I secretly thought would happen all along – as being at about 75% capacity.
My patient load is definitely less than usual and I have been trying to wrap up the afternoons by 3 PM or earlier. Our IVF schedule was also relatively light this week, slightly fewer than 20 cycles, and not all of them fell to me.
I’ve been doing less at home, too. I still have a 15# lifting restriction for another two weeks and am not allowed to raise my arms directly above my head or do repetitive motions. The post-operative instructions I received from the hospital had examples of What Not To Do and the arm movement section clearly said not to wash windows. I laughed out loud because I do not think I have ever – EVER! – voluntarily washed a window, much less repetitively so.
I told a few people that I’m feeling more tired than usual, but I had to dig deep and ask myself if I was really more fatigued or if I thought that’s how I should feel and was somehow telling myself/others a false narrative.
The truth is, I’ve enjoyed this week’s quasi part-time schedule.
By the end of my second week off of work after surgery (I took 2.5 weeks off total), I knew that I was sliding into a bad place where my daily activities of Eating Girl Scout Cookies and Watching Daytime TV could not continue. Next week I am diving back in, full schedule and full steam ahead. The IVF calendar is at capacity and I will need roller skates to keep up.
While I am desperate to get past this acute cancer phase (successfully, too, please, please!), I am slllloooowly starting to think about how After Cancer (AC) life will be structured.
The pace I’ve kept for the past 3 years is not a viable long-term strategy, nor should it be. I’d like to find a happy medium between my cookies/TV, quasi part-time and roller skates schedules, although everything now is still too raw and unresolved to feel like I can make extended plans.
My mother-in-law is very kind and recently sent me a box of fancy chocolates.
The accompanying note:
“Here is my cure for just about anything. If you feel anxiety or frustration or whatever, take one or as many as it takes to make you feel good. Not to worry about calories. In fact you need extra calories to keep up your strength.”
Last week, Spouse mentioned that he made plans for us to go out to dinner on Saturday night.
My nephew and his fiancée were on board to watch the kids.
I thought that we’d just been out to dinner, but when I did the math, I realized it had been nearly six weeks (longer?) since we’d eaten a meal together, just us.
[And before that? NOVEMBER. Sigh. We have work to do].
But, Saturday got away from me.
I was feeling well and decided to take the dog for a walk. I went too far and became tired.
Next, I attended my daughter’s fifth grade orchestra concert. I was nodding off by the end.
And then I was done.
I contemplated telling Spouse that dinner was off. Rest was all I could muster.
An hour of napping later, though, and I was refreshed and ready to go.
We drove to the restaurant, Spouse gave his name at the host stand, and we were shown to our booth.
And seated there was one of my dearest friends in the world.
G. and I started as physicians at the same academic medical center within 3 weeks of each other in the summer of 2008.
We quickly figured out that our birthdays are within days of each other. We both had to do a Meyers Briggs personality test as part of our work orientation and discovered that we had the same profile, one of the rarest, ENTJ. Our friendship sparked from day one and grew to wildfire levels.
And then, eight years later, we went separate ways.
For different reasons, the academic center was no longer for us.
I went into private practice.
He became wildly successful as an executive physician at a pharmaceutical company.
I missed seeing him every day but we were able to maintain our friendship.
Our paths still crossed several times per year, but there was no event that had him scheduled to be sitting in that restaurant booth on Saturday night.
That was pure love.
Turns out, Spouse and G. had been crafting this plan for weeks, knowing it would cheer me up.
Big gestures are not required for friendship, but wow! This one was marvelous.
Everyone should be lucky enough to have a friend like this.