I Canceled Getting My Highlights Done

My roots look terrible but I canceled an appointment to get my highlights done last week.

Really, what’s the point?

My hair’s going to fall out soon anyway.

$300 saved.

My current plan is to get my head shaved approximately one week after my first chemo treatment.

Here are some terrible but accurate comments about chemotherapy-related hair loss:

Hair usually begins falling out two to four weeks after you start treatment.

It could fall out very quickly in clumps or gradually. You’ll likely notice accumulations of loose hair on your pillow, in your hairbrush or comb, or in your sink or shower drain. Your scalp may feel tender.

Your hair loss will continue throughout your treatment and up to a few weeks afterward. Whether your hair thins or you become completely bald will depend on your treatment.

People with cancer report hair loss as a distressing side effect of treatment. Each time you catch a glimpse of yourself in a mirror, your changed appearance is a reminder of your illness and everything you’ve experienced since your diagnosis.

My take on the loss is that it is inevitable. I have followed some other patients’ journeys via Instagram and it seems that even those who try to fight the good fight eventually succumb to a full head shave, and the in-between stages are not exactly awesome.

Plus, I am lazy. I do not like to clean at baseline, much less sweep up masses of hair from every surface of my home and unclog disgusting shower drains. It seems more efficient to have this done in one fell swoop in a salon setting that does not require me to maintain cleanliness.

Here is what I am really upset about, though:

New hair may grow in just like old hair, or it may be thicker, curlier, straighter, or a different color than it was before treatment. Some women who regularly color-treated their hair are surprised when new hair growth is completely gray.

Oh, my god.

Now would be the time for me to hit the panic button. Repeatedly.

I have always joked that I will die blonde, dyed blonde.

This led me to google the following:

Fortunately, it seems that extremely short hair is still dye-able.

Whew.

Now here’s hoping to get to that next phase.