And … I’m back.
Sorry for the radio silence. I didn’t mean it to be that way, I swear.
A lot of things happened, but I didn’t feel like talking about any of them.
Something happened and I don’t want to stay quiet.
Or perhaps better said: I found my voice again.
I’ve written about my love for Fellow Flowers before. After discovering the group in 2014, I was all in.
I wanted – needed – to be part of a community of women runners that is about so much more than running.
Last weekend I attended Rock Retreat Run, where nearly 250 like-minded Flowers were ALL IN for three transformative days of dreaming, connecting, laughing, sobbing (yes), and undergoing personal development (although to call it “personal development” is to practically belittle how important this felt).
Spiritual Gangsters in running shoes, y’all.
My BFF T. came along, and I was so glad to have her there as a witness. Two minds now blown.
There were so many Big and Small Moments over the course of the weekend, but a few particularly stood out.
One Big Idea was to figure out what it would take to lead a life you love, one filled with passion and purpose, and then find your First Step.
The First Step can seem really, really scary. Paralyzingly so.
And then one brave, eloquent woman stood up and talked about the concept of Summiting. (Flower Friend, thank you for these words. You don’t know how they hit me).
I’m paraphrasing, but this is the gist:
When mountain climbers get to the top of a mountain, they don’t stay there. They get to the top of Mount Everest and then they get the hell out of there, because it can be cold and dangerous at the top. And staying at the top of the mountain isn’t the point, anyway. The point is to Summit, to take it as far as you can go and then head down to complete the expedition and move on to the next adventure.
The thing is, Summiting exists in real life. There are some things we can take so far and then they’re done; we’ve Summited.
Without too many details, lately a part of my life feels like I Summited, fell right off the damn mountain, and now I’m lying there busted up at the bottom of the valley.
But like Glennon Doyle Melton told us on Friday, the valley is where the rivers and the fields are. Rivers and fields give us tools to make energy. Being in the valley makes us stronger, and we can Summit higher the next time.
Now I’m ready to Rise.
Thank you, Fellow Flowers.
A Small-But-Awesome Moment: T. and I celebrating the Flower 5k finish.